A.D.I.D.A.S.

Daryl Bem, a social psychologist at Cornell University, has theorized that the influence of biological factors on sexual orientation may be mediated by experiences in childhood.

I must agree with this for ever since I've realized that I am at least Bisexual (maybe gay...time will tell) I've tried my best to piece the pieces together, which is why I started this blog. All I know is what I know of myself. I am very interested in others stories of child hood for one idea that is out there and one that I must agree with is that this is not absolutly genetic. I must dissagree with some studies only because of what I know about my past and my personaly expeirence.

I believe that what causes sexual orientation is such a complex thing that there is a very valid reason why there hasn't been any "break through" that has isolated a single indication as to why it is different in different people. There is most likely so many contributing factors that for any study to try and pin point a single one, has proven impossible.

I can only tell my story and I do so with the total understanding that, "I am a world before I am a man." This means to me that I am my own planet of emotions, logic, learnt behaviors as well as innate instincts just as much as anyone else is the same type of individual. What has made me the way I am may not be the same as to what has made you or the next human.

I know that as a baby I was bathed by both parents and although my mother changed my diapers and all that, I never saw her naked. if ever I had I don't remember but I'm almost positive that I have not. However i often took baths with my father because it was more accepted. A male bathing with another male, especially the father was normal. What was unacceptable or taboo was for a male child to bath with the mother. If I had been female however I would have taken baths with my mother instead.

Also when I was growing up I had a childhood best friend who was most dear to me. My first compegnion, whom I showered with on a regulare basis. I stayed at his house often and before it was time for us to go to sleep we were ordered to shower by his mother. Instead of making up two showers she threw us in together, which was normal. We played with one another in the shower as we played in the sandbox.

The absense of a female in the tub is what I can think of must have predesposed me to realized subconsiously at a young age that my life long compegnion should be another male. However this same sceario could quite possibly be applied to a hetrosexual boy.

Let us say that there is the same exact type of occurance for a boy who has grown into a man of "straight" sexual orientation, this would mean that everything I think would have pointed me in my direction of sexual attraction is flawd, which it very well maybe.

All I know is what I feel and why I feel it is a mystry locked away deep inside the subconscious.